So it has come to my attention that I have not updated my blog in quite some time. The truth of the matter is that I just completely forgot about it. Oh well I shall just talk to you guys about what is on my mind.
Dreams are a creepy thing to me anymore because they tend to show me what I am avoiding in my life. Last night I had a disturbing dream which felt real (as those who have seen Inception know that dreams give you that feeling). The thing I hate about dreams that seem like I am in reality fool you into feeling emotions you have buried either intentionally or unintentionally. This dream reminded me of an ex and the pain I bare because of that relationship. No matter how long it has been since you lose someone you care about they tend to always be with you in some way. My subconscious likes to remind me that I am still carrying a lose around with me. We mourn when someone leaves us. We cry we break things or we just simply sit on the couch with an attempt to avoid the world. Whatever your way of mourning we do it and desperately want to move on. The issue is we really don’t get to decide when we are done. We can try to act like we are over someone or something but maybe we have just hidden that emotion inside. Patience, faith and hope have never been strong in me. Each one I have to work hard to have, which of course is very frustrating when I want to be done with a sad point in my life. The truth is that emotions cannot be dealt with in such a rush manner like we as American’s do with everything else in our lives. Emotions only heal over their own determined time and some will always be hurt. We just learn to live with the pain.
